I started this blog about 8 months ago when I went through a really rough time in my life. I have to admit that I haven't done the things I said I would be doing in that last post. I am embarrassed to say how lazy I HAVE been in my walk with God. Although, I believe that the path I have taken in the last 8 months is leading me closer to where God wants me in life.
In February of this year I met a young man on eHarmony.com. He seemed like my soul mate, the man God has for me to marry. We spoke almost everyday on the phone until he came to meet me and my family in July 22-26. My family LOVED him which made me think it was even more meant to be. We spoke a lot about family, faith, marriage, children, etc. We even had our kids names picked out... lol.
After his trip to Wyoming, we decided to put off me moving till October so we could both save up more money for my trip to Iowa. I had been looking at jobs and since both his sisters worked at Nationwide, I was constantly looking for a job there. I didn't quite understand the job names... they seemed really confusing so my dad offered to look and see what he thought would be good for me, since he has been an insurance agent for over 28 years. He found me the PERFECT Job working in a Personal Lines Insurance Call center for Nationwide Insurance as a P/C Customer Service Rep.
I applied for the position Wednesday, August 18. I received a call asking for an interview Friday, August 20. My first interview was Monday, August 23 and I did an online assessment that evening. The next day I was called for a 2nd interview. Wednesday, August 25 I had my 2nd interview at 10am-11:15am. I was so nervous about how the interview went because my call got dropped 3 times!!! They told me that they were having a meeting to discuss who they would hire the next day but I wouldn't hear if I got the job for 1-2 weeks. I figured that at the VERY earliest, I wouldn't know till the next day. At about 3:45 pm on Wednesday (the same day as my interview) I received a call from Deb, the woman who did my first interview. She asked me how I thought my interview went. I said I thought it had gone considerably well considering my 3 dropped calls. She on the spot offered me a job with Nationwide! I was so stunned and excited! I know it must've been a God thing that I got the job so quickly-- especially considering that they didn't check any of my references as far as I know. Since the job starts Sept 19th, my move date got pushed up to Sept 15th-16th.
The man I was moving there for didn't feel that he would be able to get the time off so he sent a check to help pay for my mom's plain tickets so that she could drive with me and fly home. Things seemed to be going Great! Out of the blue though on September 7th, my boyfriend called me while I was doing grocery shopping for the woman I nanny for at Walmart. He said we needed to talk... and everyone knows what that means.
He said he didn't want me to move which turned in he wasn't ready for me to move and that we were "moving too fast". I explained to him that I had a job and I was moving. At some point in the conversation he said "Holly, I love you, but I'm not IN love with you." I managed to keep it together for the rest of the conversation, but afterwards I psycho called my mom and as soon as she was on the phone I lost it. I cried throughout the rest of the shopping trip and managed to compose myself before I checked out. I told my boss about it as I was putting her groceries away and she was so understanding. She gave me a big hug and told me to spend the day with my Mom.
I'm not sure if its because my sister Kristi immediately posted on Facebook for people to pray for me, or if God just gave me some amazing strength, but the next day I was ok with it. I'm at peace with the situation. I knew that I still wanted to move, and I didn't want to give up the job opportunity with Nationwide. I just now needed to find a place to live, since before the plan was to stay with my boyfriend's (now ex-boyfriend's) family. I looked at apartments but since I have bad credit I didn't feel I would get approved, especially in time to move in on September 16th when I get to Iowa. I put it in God's hands... I said, "God, if this is what you want, give me a place to stay." That night I went to a friend's pampered chef party and saw a verse on the bathroom wall... It was Jeremiah 11 something... but it wasn't that verse that I needed. That verse reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11. I needed to hear that God has a Plan for me. Especially since I don't always understand it!
I got the thought (I'm sure it was God-Breathed) to check Craigslist for people looking for roommates. I saw a few ok ads, and emailed them to ask them questions about it but none of them really stood out to me until I found Sara's ad. She and her husband rent out 2 rooms in their house and have since 2008. I texted her and immediately it seemed perfect, almost too perfect. A fully furnished room in a beautiful home AND I get to bring my dog ZoeGirl with me!!!
I don't know what God's plan is for me... But I think God has something in Iowa for me. Its crazy to think this... But I believe God used eHarmony for me to find My Ex Boyfriend to think I fell in love so that I would be willing to take the step to move to Des Moines and find a job. He used the job as something to keep me moving even after my breakup. Then God used Craigslist to show me a place to live. I am strangely at peace about the whole moving situation which is EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE OF ME! I'm a worrywart! A terrible worrywart! So I feel so uncharacteristic being so calm about the situation, and I can ONLY attribute that to God and his almighty power.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
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